That's true. I will still draw something or do whatever anytime I have the discipline to but I don't even know if I can use this site as a main priority. I just feel so unwelcome to this site! I'm always in a never ending crisis of wanting to leave and stay on this site and have major panic attacks when looking into the number of notifications and expect that it's someone from my past calling me out on something that I'm putting behind myself. This is kinda why I'm pretending not to be me and hiding my identity, at least until I make that better name for myself.
At this point, I don't want to go beyond anything like exposing my full name and my actual face on this site. (I only did that once...with an anime voice actress.) People seem to be avoiding me because of my emotional problems which I don't know how to control sometimes and people prefer not to empathize and just dessert me.
For the record, this is why I hardly chat with people cause I'm what I am most of the time and I fear possibly more rejections so I hardly login or do anything unless I'm okay.
Sorry for such a long wall of text, I just wanted to sorta let it out of my system.